my life

2007-08-22T09:44:00.000+08:00

Everythings been gg well btwn me n qim. (:

loving u more each day.

wouldnt ask for more.

Well i miss these babes. I miss the fun times we had.

N that Tania went MIA from me. I rarely see her alr la can.

Gd luck for your O's SEET YUAI x) study hard then we 4 go out more often. with qim.

N i totally miss this babe. ive learn to appreciate her more (: she's oh-so-nice like ALL THE TIME. I LOVE U SHIKINEHHHHHHHHHH X)

2007-08-12T02:46:00.000+08:00

I LOVE NURHAQIMAH BTE MUHD KHAMIN LIN QIN HUA x)

hotness i cant resist. x)

2007-08-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

09/08/07

LOVE

sun, sea, fireworks, love. what more can u ask for?

Celebrating her birthday by loving her. Singapore (:

2007-03-22T18:50:00.000+08:00

happy 1 yr twin . (: thanks .

a fuckg long train ride .

2007-03-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

after paperworks n tons of boxes to carry .

i have my break time too ok .

&

i can wake up to this every morning .

full of colours . (:

2007-03-02T04:29:00.000+08:00

im at work now n im blogging .

works been a killer . raah just look at how many stuff i have to clear by the night . n mind u im doing it alone . d makcik does d cleaning n keropoks .

but after works worth it . every morning cos this is who i get to see .

n if im lucky ,

d cutest thing can .

there u go . lovely . err gota get back to work .

2007-02-23T19:44:00.000+08:00

a new chapter begins .

i just want to tell those losers out there whose got nothing better to do than to kepo into other peoples life to get a life on their own . stuff a brinjal in it if u cant keep it close . it'll help . well , i guess karma will come to u soon . fuckg traps . guess u people are happy now n can finally go get her for yourselves .

those ppl who cared . i bow to u . thanks alot .
yes , 'in your face ' . i know . cos i didn listen to u guys from d start .

2007-02-22T04:32:00.000+08:00

im not gona talk abt it . just gona let it flow by itself . if it happens it happens . i just know i did my best .

im acting like nth ever happened these past few weeks n continue like how it was . not gona talk abt it anymore .

n i dont care how u gona feel towards it im just gona treat u d same . with tlc . be glad , only u get it .

2007-02-14T22:56:00.000+08:00

my one n only . im sorry if things never go as plan most of the time n for all d hiccups we face time n again . having u was a dream come true n im loving every single second when im around u . we'll grow strong together n i'll always be there for u .

even though u dont celebrate valentines , im just gona say this . happy valentines .

ps , i love d picture . look how shiny u are . lovely . nyahahaha

2007-02-08T22:46:00.000+08:00

to the gorgeous girl of my dreams , heh .

its filled with ups n downs , though i admit there were lots of downs , i guess it was all worth it . it was hard for me , to hang in there . i was on d verge of giving up , to move on . but thank god i stayed on , cos failing to do so would mean i'll be missing the wonders u possess thats all worth it to fight for . we could be great , or even more than that . in time to come .

love , love , love .

5 months kicking . (: heh .

2007-01-29T13:58:00.001+08:00

lifes suckg nowadays .

if only ..

2007-01-21T02:21:00.000+08:00

nyahahahaha prettaye prettaye . ok i just had to post this . (:

2007-01-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

im afraid of losing u .

2007-01-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

n so i guess everythings been so lovely . (:

other than d fact that im kinda grounded . yes . hadi , grounded ! how bad is that .

grr well i dont really follow d rules so ya . thats why i said kinda .

WELL , LOOOOOONG STORY . n ive no time to explain . so ya . (:

AZURA'S A BITCH LUHH . WTH SHIKIN TOO . HOW COULD U PUT MY FACE IN YOUR BLOG . AS IN , IM FINE WITH NICE PICTURES BUT THAT !!!!

i realise i can be sociable if i want to n not if i dont want to or got no mood . its very easy to make friends . but one shld never forget old friends i guess . we'll just tend to miss them out . ive stm so sorry ppl if i forget your name but i'll definitely rmb d face . i think .

cos i saw zulkifli d other day i was in d same train with him standing right in front of him . i forgot his name at that time so i didn say hi . he was lookg at me from top to bottom . guess he's shy to say hi too .

raaah theres lots of ants on my table . pest exterminator please ! callg dina . . . nyahaha

n to everyone . pls keep my gay pictures to yourself if u have any . dont show it to d world . gays might look for me or something . raaah i dont want new ones ive alr got them

keepg things from u is so that i wouldn hurt u . i hope u'll undstnd . well babe , hang in there with me okay . even with all the gagagegerururara , uve been great . ilu many many

2007-01-14T14:20:00.000+08:00

i know its late but who cares .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEET YUAI ! (:

the 2 yrs with u have been wonderful . though there were ups n downs , we still kept close to each other . ive never regretted any decisions made with u . thanks for being so close to me . your like 16 now , act your age dont go flirting around anymore . (: loveu yuai parker . happy birthday .

2007-01-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

i just cant do it like yiyang . i dont know where he get all that patience n determination . to control , to simply smile even though its killing him inside . to never give away wht he feels . i just want to know where he gets his patience from .

imagine it . its max to d brim of d bottle . with d cap having a dent cos d bottle's just not big enough to fit whts inside thats growing . its alrd up to my throat , any moment i could have a fit . trying to flush it down wont help . it goes back up .

i need another bottle .

why cant it be simple . why must it be so complicated .

2007-01-07T21:47:00.000+08:00

HAPPENING I SWEAR .

ytd was great . though didn reali go as planned , it still workd out great .

firstly i woke up at like 10 plus to meet shikin n syafiqin at 11 . i was late , well just a little . we were supposed to go sp but twas too far n i was lazy , so we went town straight . i got my wallet yay THANKS SHIKINEHHH YOUR D BOMB ! (:

after that we went ps to meet her colleague . then we went to play pool while waiting for SHIKINEHHH's mom to get her new phone . then came along d evermost fun to bully azura , SHIKINEHHH's cousin . hahaha then we went starbucks after SHIKINEHHH got her new phone . that cybershot phone . soon after syafiqin went to meet her bf n i had to go off to meet yuai . she was with some guy , err yea quite cute i guess . she's forever going out with some guy . HAHA k then we walkd around northpoint where theres nowhere to walk n soon enough went back home . i had to go home early for religious lessons .

after that i went clark quay to meet shaun n anita . it costs only like 10 bucks from jurong to clark quay . how cool . shobana n her friends came after that . then we tried to enter mos . amazingly i got in this time but shaun they all couldn . so we left n walked around trying to find other clubs . we seperated from shobana's friends cos they went bumblebee i think but they rest didn want to . so me shaun anita n shobana tried attica . d age limit was 25 for guys . so we went the clinic . all of us managed to get in n d good thing was that if we didn like d song there we could go mos cos they're linked . well , they were playing house music d whole night so we went mos instead . they were playing rnb in d cage . so it was freakg packed . d main area they were playing d songs like in st james . something like techno . well , thats when we met rozanne n kimmee n d cage . they were alone so somehow we managed to get them to join us . (: twas cool . i asked them for drinks with us n they agreed . well , all in all that night was uber fun

first time im so like in detailed about my entry . haha maybe cos ive nth to do thats why

i'll say more abt today tmr luhh since ive nth on in d morning . grr

well happy 4th of 5th anniversary dina . (; im hooked .

your so damn hot (:

2007-01-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

works been okay . im going to downtown to help at d other shop later . gona be an easier job . same pay though . just that its far .

thanks to shikin im gona get my new wallet tmr . (: n im so not gona loose it . grr enough wallets alrd .

st james aint bad after all when im with my cousin . haha though u cant reali dance there . its more for there to drink n chat .

thanks babe for getting me lunch ytd . twas sweet . even though your sick . but u made it an excuse to skip math huh .

N IM HUNGRY . SOMEONE GET ME SOME FOOD PLEASE !!

gona meet na n d rest tonight . hope d rest can come . gona be fun . this's wat happens when i get my pay . i tend to spend lots of it .

2006-12-25T19:35:00.000+08:00

st james power station was CRAP . there were just freakg old geezers everywhere . not for youths . its like no entry for 23 n below . rnb was kinda crap d dj talked too muc . n we danced to like some sort of techno ?! wtf twas funny but hey , adam can move . so could those china ppl . doing their favourite move on d pavilion . it was fuckg funny i swear . i burst out laughing in front of his friend .

my knees are killing i swear i need go for checkup . i was forced out till 5 this morning n i couldn get any slp had work at 7 . but yea that auntie was understandg i got to like rest a little . was kinda slack .

akljkbvkjabimnotappreciatedimjustyoursparetyreyournoteventryingclakhcnoia

2006-12-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

I GOT MY IPOD BACK . YAY .

okay random . but hey . music's back babe . shikin i can return u your ipod alrd . thanks alot yea . (:

it was raining catsdogsmonkeyszebraselephantschimpanzeeshippopotamussquirreldinachickensrabbitsroosterswhalessharksfishes

twas terrible .

adam's an ass . somehow i think i miss him though . he's kinda fun to bully . esp with that hair of his . ive made lots of friends when im leavg . how cool .

OH HAPPY 9TH ANNIVERSARY TWIN . (: U'VE BEEN GREAT , AT TIMES .

u got d whole world ahead of u .

2006-12-08T20:17:00.000+08:00

i miss the gays . a big part of me . my loves . hah

its been cool so far . but tania's gone . grrrr !! i want see trili !!

works been boring cos my couz quit on me . its too far for him then now i work alone n go there alone . was so bored i bought shots . hah how cool .

my sis had 'slumber party' last night . there were all girls in d room luhh . haha when will i have mine .

ytd was damn disappointing . we had to work . raah ! nevertheless ,

happy 4th month hon , muc loves .

2006-12-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

beautiful day with pretty marcellaaaaaaaaa .

she's nice i swear .

damnit it got nth to do with u right . settle your own problems first then come do mine . thanks .

im starting anew . other than my new love , ive confessed everything . i want be closer to my family n her . also to end all wrongdoings .

babe , forgive n forget . please .

2006-11-30T11:55:00.000+08:00

that day .

my 15 yr old auntie . grrr ! wasted .

8000!!!!! when im prepared k babe . (: hahahaha

2006-11-27T22:38:00.000+08:00

works been fun . seriously , except for some mistakes here n there .

i was reading men's health while selling ice cream .

syah called from thailand . omg she's crazy i swear . her dad's gona kill her when her bills come .

im not a fuckg playboy . raah

i stick to one . n only one . so if u think otherwise , just fuck off .

your all i need . honey .

2006-11-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

i lost my wallet . twas stolen on d first day of work . im feelg damn fucked up right now . damnit im fuckg careless i swear . now i have to remake my ic n all that . 300 bucks . n i just withdrew 50 bucks before it got stolen .

she's never there when i need her the most . she's never there when i need somebody to hold .
tell me your feelgs . cos u alrd know mine . yours contradicting . im lost .

whole day of fun is nothing when your problems hit u back d next day . i shld be free of worries n everything now but im not doing it .

i want go mia .

2006-11-24T12:32:00.000+08:00

PROM PICS .

meiching yo !

hawt hawt .

shikin yo .

sweat it out .

a day of sweat n fun .

2006-11-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

raya pics .

so gay yo .

2006-11-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

FUCK THAT PERSON WHO CALLED ME A PLAYER . RAAAH GET A LIFE .

im pissed .

MY TWIN CANT KISS FOR NUTS . CAREFUL TWIN , YOUR HURTG JUSTIN . HAHAHA

(:

oh n me n shikin heard syah pissing last night . twas gross . hahaha

...

i need assurance . tsk .
your not opening up to me . i dont even know bout your past . i dont even know anything .
tell me . inform me . guide me . love me .

2006-11-16T11:05:00.000+08:00

recent pics .

(:

2006-11-07T19:07:00.000+08:00

[x] a television
[x] cd player
[x] vcds
[x] dvds
[x] dvd player
[x] playstation
[x] radio
[x] computer
[x] fridge
[x] bathroom
[X] posters
TOTAL: 11

You are allowed to:
[ ] party
[x]go to the mall with friends
[x] eat unhealthy stuff
[x]stay out til past midnight
[x] have ur own curfew
[x] pick ur own school
[x] buy ur own stuff
[ ] drive anywhere
[ ] drink liquor
[ ] curse
TOTAL:6

Have you ever?
[x] talk back to ur parents
[x] sneak out at night
[x] been "told" not "scolded"
[x] been out of country
[ ] shopped til u drop
[x] been given more money than u needed
[ ] felt u were heavily guarded
[ ] spent thousands in one store only
[x] made ur parent(s) cry
[x] yelled at ur maid
TOTAL:7

DO YOU:
[ ] have what u need
[ ] get what u want
[ ] travel a lot
[x] have a maid
[ ] have a driver
[ ] get a high allowance
[x] do whatever u want
[x] have branded clothing
[ ] have a credit card
[x] eat whenever u want
TOTAL:4

DO YOUR PARENTS:
[x] ever scold you for not following your curfew
[ ] give u EVERYTHING u want
[ ] trust you
[ ] buy you things for the sake of buying them
[x] give you "extra cash" when you're out somewhere
[ ] think u should have the best and only the best
[x] want you to be happy
[x] help you
[x]love you
[ ] pay for the mess you've made
TOTAL:5

GRAND TOTAL: 37

mulitply the total number by 2 and repost this saying "i'm __% aspoiltbrat .

fcuk im 74% spoilt .. i disagree . NONSENCE . roar !

2006-11-04T01:11:00.000+08:00

NOW SOMEBODY RUN UP TO ME N STAB ME TILL I DIE !

stop this feelg ! why is this happeng again . its not nice . at all .

i wana let it out ! i need a random person to lend me a listeng ear as i rant out my feelgs .

im fuckg hungry ! damnit .

n im not blaming anyone i brought this up to myself .

2006-11-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since i last turn to u for help n comfort . i miss those days when i spill everything to u , share my life with u , even cry my heart out to u .

im just glad , your still here for me to spill everything to u . still here when i need u , my dove when i see u .

im grateful . n no matter wht , i will always be here for u too . always .
no matter how many stupid bad decisions u make , i'll support u . be your pillar of strength .

; for my dove .

2006-11-03T09:10:00.000+08:00

Ruminations About Love .

Love? haha. Mystery of Life. You'll learn to love it, Like it, Hate it , Avoid it , Manage it, Find it , Hide it , fix It, Destroy it, Damaged it, Hang on to it, Let it go or just dont bother about it at all but surprise you it will. Just when you think it's out of your life, when you think it won't come back , when you think you're safe and untouched, GUESS WHAT ? BOO! Love said Hi , smirks and slaps you hard in the heart and head. Somehow, Somewhere and Somebody. Its been misjudged, overrated and definitely misunderstood. Though , It fuels every human beings' will to Live. Love = Fear + Anxiety + Joy + Security + Depression. Another equation of a mental disease.

2006-11-02T23:20:00.001+08:00

OKAYY . EVERYONE VISIT YUAI'S BLOG .

im advertising her blog . no , if u want see how pretty tania cher is then go view . i tell u she's cute luhh . HAHA

i swear your pose is fuckg ugly . its not like its obvious or anything . nicer if its natural . just smile .

okayy now i need someone to talk to . BADLY !

n someone with answers .

2006-10-29T22:51:00.000+08:00

sorry anita boo hwee san i couldn post earlier cos i cant seem to put up d pics i took on my bday .
raah shall blog bout it one fine day when im bored n free . (:

just wana thank syah n shikin for d crumpler . haha twas reali sweet . love those babettes .
raah !
my weeks been fun .

oh thanks yuai n tania for d lovely see through boxers n flip flops . hahaha
raah to think that i wont get to see u guys so often next yr . lets spend more time this yr. haha

babe , my whole week's been all u .
twas sweet . nice .my nenek likes u .
dah bole kahwin . HAHAHAHA
n cos of u im all malay now .
raah !

n thanks for the post sweets ,
your my idiot . (:

oh seet aiai , i'll do d survey soon okayy . haha thanks for putting up with me that day . grr !

oh this post is weird , im like thanking the whole world . HAHAHA

THANK U WORLD FOR SHARING THIS EARTH WITH ME . (: SMILE !

from dina .

thanks love . (:

2006-10-20T18:02:00.000+08:00

they make me smile (:

i costs 65 bucks . any buyers ?

smile .

twas ugly

raaaaah

2006-10-16T14:39:00.000+08:00

lovey dovey . (: my babes n hunks .

that desperate housewife . haha (: our love .

my gay (:

there was a psp behind that chem book . but hey , i did the chem too okay .

you could say that .

hotness ! my class (:

lovey dovey .

i dont quite know how to say how i feel .

2006-10-15T12:11:00.000+08:00

raaah . its all tuition for me . like wtf . i cant wait for o's to end .

aaah ! n i dont get my allowance till i show my dad my prelims result . freak .

now agree with me . my class rocks . hahahaha

hows dat . we even had poh with us .

bloody gays .

ive lost that tingling feeling i used to have . baby , show me what im missing .

2006-10-06T20:07:00.000+08:00

oh i find this damn cool

1 Question
1 Chance.
BEST OPPORTUNITY.
1 shot
1 question.
1 chance.
1 answer.

Thats all you get.
You get to ask me 1 question.(jus send me msg on friendster...)
any one question,no matter how crazy it is.
ANY 1 question!!
Conditions: I won't tell ANYONE
and I
promise to answer it.

The catch is,you have to repost this
and see what people ask you.
So go for it.

cool right . hahaha try me !

oh today was not bad . met twin ! twas damn long since i last met her . oh n first thing she ask me is hows u n yuai . like -.- dat was so long ago . okayy forget it .
went bishan library . twas damn crowded luh but she chose a nice place . i saw this damn hot st nicks girl . omg reali hot luhh . haha okayy twin said my taste veh bad . like who cares . i think my taste quite different from normal ppl . oh went there to study . i did a little bit on maths n i did cold war ! but couldn do much was distracted by that girl . haha okayy hadi can never study outside . tskk .

oh n dina wont want to be wif me cos im stingy . walauu.. hahahahaha

2006-10-05T21:14:00.000+08:00

fuckg sch i swear they suck luhh d teachers there . okayy im not saying all the teachers . i find the pe department except for mr yeo a failure. like wth luhh . lazy assholes . look at d hod . fuckg lazy luhh . ive done so much for them n all i get is a c5 . bullshit luhh . n she's even lazy to edit the stuff for me . walau damn fuck n ms ho , she has got smting against me since forever . like fuckg bias luhh . just because i never go training that often . but hell i performed way better than marcus even though he's a regular in training . at least i work my ass off everytime i go for training . thats why i can produce results . n u gave me some fuckg coach how m i supposed to train hard in sec 5 . okayy i got nth against her i just miss my old coach .

i swear the sch's corrupted . they do stuff as they please . everyone blames me for not putting down my records properly in d paper . fuck shldnt u all have d records . n i personally went to ms ho to tell her this was all i could rmb n ask her to help me edit. u fuckg said okay can . n now u blame me for not remembering what i ran for . marcus who didn bring any glory for the sch got freakg more points than me wth is that . he got a2 with library of course . with that shldnt i get a b4 or more ? n i won for nat jr shldn i get arnd there too . fuck luhh. wheres zarina when u need her . she'll definately help me in this . i wouldn have gone to ms ho if zarina's missing pls .

i dont deserve a c5 luh . fuck u !

2006-10-02T00:03:00.000+08:00

lets just forget bout tonight .

i wna set sail. i wana go to bermuda triangle . i wana enter it n disappear from this earth only to return when ive explored wads inside n find out d mystery .

i want to grow old with u but before that i needa pee.

i needa hairdryer man

save up money hadi save up money. u needa get dat haircut n solve your fringe problem

i wana get a black n blue rose. i think its nice..

apart from ppl who play piano. i find those who can really draw damn cool . like damn nice luhh.

your fuckg mean but i love u anyway.

It's not my fault I love you, it's yours

2006-10-01T00:52:00.000+08:00

bang bang boom baaa blaaah blooo bloom bleam blung blong

errr yes. sounds. hahaha

my weeks been boring . except for some afternoons. yes. tsk ive been sick for d whole week. omg if only i can do this like every week. like not go sch at all. haha im only gona use 1 letter for my 5 days of no sch.

fuck i have to update on my folio. its so freakg irritating n troublesome like wth im not gona use it for my o's why must i improve on it. fuck. k guess i just gota do it.

i get turn off when i see textbooks or things related to studies. like URGH im alrd in d holiday mood.

my wants my wants. aaaah i want get my wants. ppl u know wad to do. (: yay.

oh syah. sorry eh . i shall lend u my ipod one day. tsk dont blame me. ive not been attending sch. one day.... hahahahaha NO WAIT I CANT LEND IT TO U NOW. YOUR HAVING YOUR EOY. so ya.. after dat. hahahaha

n i thought i could cheer u up a little. make u let loose. babe, cheer up a little bit. if only i know what can cheer u up. i want see that smile (:

dina ! eggs for u honey. =p

2006-09-23T15:56:00.000+08:00

oh i swear i hate chivas. aaaaaaaahhh. 2nd time ive puked okayy..

okay this time was because of the cab ride. wth i feel so guilty i fell for d temptation. tskkkkkkkkkkkkk !! fuck.

oh but we had sheesha too. its either spelled like that or shesha or shisha. either way, we had a real great time. shesha made shaun strong. dats wad he said. d thing is i was last to get high but only i got drunk. wth. d last part i took alot of shots cos shaun won dat stupid 5-10 game many times. yes n i was out cold when i reach home. manage to take out my pants n shirt. so i was slping with only my boxers n singlet on. n it was freakg cold cos d aircon was on n d fan was blowing straight at my face. but heck i couldn even stand to adjust d fan.

i was forced up by my dad to have seoul garden for lunch. my freakg hangover was damn bad i head kept spinning n i feel like vomiting. n i still have to like eat those half cook meat n all.

after awhile felt better. met dolphin after lunch. i swear she got a deprived childhood. never had kinder suprise once before. haha went fairprice get some stuff n back home. im freakg tired im off to bed now . (:

2006-09-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

SEET YUAI IM LAUGHING MY ASS OFF CAN !! i swear dat picture is so so funny. u look d same till u reach sec sch right n dats when u started to change.

oh go ta-bus.blogspot.com to see wad im talking abt.

tania cher im advertising your blog for u. haha

2006-09-17T21:26:00.000+08:00

oh thanks dina for d airport tour huh... haha alright dina is nicee (: /oh please do not let me walk on muddy places again okayy.

wads wif tennis players. when they serve dey give out such ugly sounds. haha d worse one must be maria sharapova.

okayy aisyah stop it. i bet u wont do it. your just faking to make me jealous. tsk.

okayy im bored. oh ive bought my baju raya. its nice i guess. looks like d one shaun wore for racial harmony. dave's one. n i look like a doorman too. like shaun looked like. hah.

tsk but fat didn have any trouble wif dat wad. as in maybe we went overboard a little. but we did dat cos he started it first. as in he started doing stuff behind us n all den pangseh-ing us. tsk. isnt dat why shaun dey all disturbed him. as in he gave stupid excuses n all. okayy forget it.

i think my blog is full of random stuff. n of no importance at all wad do u think ?

2006-09-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

im gona fail chem. twas damn hard luh.

oh today was like all abt soccer. (: goalpost was there n i was looking at it from d hall like half d time n i couldn wait to just get down dere n kick balls. hah sadly it rained hope i wont get sick aye.

ytd was fun cos i had no sch. but waiting for dina to reply me was a drag. tsk she takes like years to reply can. but yea. twas lovely. as usual cos its my date. okay shut up. but ya la. went ps to eat n walk. then to d merlion where fullerton is. so now i know where babybash is. at fullerton1. tsk okay ya. so we were just sitting dere talking letting time fly n yea. it flew past us veh fast. tsk sadly how'd i wish it would last longer. after that we went yishun for sakura. n i reach home round 10 plus. aye she even waited for d bus with me. how sweet. tsk n i felt guilty having her to walk home alone being scared of rapists n all. hah at least she found a company.

n i cant believe i went out ytd wif an atrocious hairdo. twas damn ugly can like ive never gone out without taking notice of my hair before. except sch i guess cos i dont reali care when im in sch. kinda cool when ppl thinks im gay. HAHA guess i keep in touch wif my feminine side a little too much. im metro. yay. haha

oh wads up wif fat. tsk dude get a life. pangseh us for some girl. like wth. get a grip just because u got a girls number u can act so big. though u are big but your ego went up so much twas looking as though it might come out from your ass. like come on luh set your priorities right. we've been like there for u n all den wif girls u kick us away. n just because dat girl didn reply your freakg msg u panicked n call me to help. tsk?!

seet yuai i swear my dads gona kill me. hah but ya. sorry i couldn help aye. at least i did my best n got u like d perfect person to explain those stuff to u.

MARCELLAAA!! i didn keep my word bout d 3 hrs thing. tsk but im gona try my best to aye. still got time. hahahaha

syah i reali like your hair. HAHAHA. damn cool seh.

dina. u n your 8. tsk. n its not even your number. hahaha sweets im seeing u again tmr (:

2006-09-09T16:53:00.000+08:00

tsk n i have 3 hrs of tuition tmr. i wont survive i tell u. im gona slp it off. dang.

i swear those fire brigade or wadeva u call that vehicle is damn cool. they're damn big n red. n i like d one with 17 printed so big. so cool. hah

adam is nuts. so is tania/

2006-09-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

tsk i swear my knee's gona give way anytime soon. tsk. n chong, for your info wad i wore just now was half U. tsk first time i guess u had a student speak up for himself against u. n fyi my toe was swollen.

2006-09-08T07:47:00.000+08:00

other than being nagged n all. i had a great time last night. twas considered d best day of d week since my whole week was all books. tsk n yea traded it for club night was worth it hahaa.

was out wif dina. my pri sch friend whom i never did talk to back then.

went city hall to eat at bk. then we walked towards d bridge n had a nice time catching up or 'bonding' there for an hr or so. then we headed back home. twas sweet.
d way i like it. (:

other days have been like d same. all work n some slack. hah its gona be a boring period till after o's. shit.

2006-09-07T09:37:00.000+08:00

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/749351615

2006-09-03T00:43:00.000+08:00

oh wow. just look at u. u'll flirt arnd wif me n all if u need my help or my company. but u'll just disappear if u dont n wont care bout me. tsk. how blind can i get i know im being used yet i didn do anything to stop it. i'll just blindly follow u like a fuckg dog. tsk.

urgh wads up wif this house man. my aunts being annoying. i cant stand her asking me so many qns n all dat like when im going out she'll ask where u goin. OUT. she'll ask again ya la out but where. like wth she doesn need to know wad.
n i hate it when she acts cute wif my niece. she'll ask 'sayang sape?' den on d other line my niece will say 'nenek'. n she will keep asking her d same shit n her voice gets irritating. AAAARGGHHH. n its freaking hard to get out of d house at night when she's arnd. tsk.

2006-08-30T15:48:00.000+08:00

tskk. uber tiring day..

made my way to 'sch' at midnight this morning. since hua's house was behind sch, i somewhat went to sch. hah i could have caught d last bus mann. wasted. err basically met hua at midnight den went amk mac to finish up our dnt folio cos its due today. ANITA BOO pangseh us dat monster went to slp den never meet us. urgh did our folio till 5. took redbull (as they say it has 6 times more caffeine than coffee).. isit? hah n had coke. at 4 bought d breakfast n i ordered like a regular ice milo. like wtf wrong move. i had stomach ache for d whole day cos of dat. tsk. at 5 went back to hua's place to get ready for sch. tsk wanted to take a nap but i got bitten by mosquitos. wtf 2 big bites.. den like i managed to kill it in d dark.

basically sch was d same. spend d whole day doing dnt even during other lessons. but i didn. cos i excused myself from doing any work cos of my stomach pain. hah

oh ya. nths wrong wif my leg. just dat i went out wif shorts n t shirt last nite so it wouldn look nice wif shoes. so i went wif slippers n i was too lazy to bring em shoes. so ya.. i just slip up an ankle guard telling tchers i hurt my leg. tsk. shld do it more often. den i dont have to wear shoes.

cos of some stuff our dnt is due tmr. n i have to meet those guys later to finish up my dnt. bloody fuck i cant even catch a nap. gona change to tmr's clothes n im off to ANITA BOOS house. might be able to doze off awhile dere i hope. im shagged.

shaun saw me slping during efl. tsk it was damn ugly i know. but i couldn help it. was damn tired okayyy..

2006-08-27T21:51:00.000+08:00

oh n i bought another pair of shoes. told my bro to get it. so dat we can share. hah shall use dat for soccer den my joga shoe for outing n all dat. too nice to use it for soccer. hah.

n i have not finish my dnt. fuck.im so dead. wed wed wed. dateline. 3 days away. n i still got a long way to go. fuck fuck fuck. urghh..

always pissing me off. tsk i thought dat angry side of me gone but its still here. i get angry so easily. aaah. too hot-tempered alrd.

n i bought my first ever white pair of socks. hah. wow.

loser huh. shakes head.

2006-08-26T18:33:00.000+08:00

tiring day.. urgh.

i cant believe i spend 114 bucks on a pair of white shoes. but, its nice luh. tsk n of all places there. millenia walk. d salesgirl not bad luhh. tania shld have gotten her no. wif her we could get more contacts. as in nike stuffs. hah den we walk past this charity thing n a guy showed us a magic trick. how d fuck did he do it. damn cool. n i don think it was a trick cos it looks damn real n he touched my hand i felt static n an extra coin appeared in my clenchd fist. coool. n daphne said hi.. hah. don care wad yuai thinks i think she's hot. HAHA

N LUCKILY SHE DOESN KNOW WHO TIQ IS. IF NOT IT'LL BE MORE AWKWARD. n u didn have to say i added her right. idiot. k neh mind. tsk shyan is gd looking luhh. k shut up.

we walked sooo far today im damn tired. n i have to go out again soon. fcuk. i'll just slp luhh.

thanks for being there wif me for almost 1 half years now. aaah i relied on u for my skills n not forgetting speed. d comfort u've gave me. d free feeling dat i get. protection for me. though uve met your fate. your d first to have lasted so long. thanks. (:

omg dat sounds stupid but ya. im reali greatful.

oh i think my english got worse. i seem to be loosing it. i dont know wether d spelling is correct or not n my structure n usage of eng has gotten worse. buck up hadi buck up.

now i need socks.

2006-08-26T09:55:00.000+08:00

oh. sat morning n i woke up damn early. like 7 plus. cos i gota ask dad for money to buy shoe.

oh ya. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! (: your getting old. tsk.

i realised i used dad instead of father for my oral. can i? ohshit.

oh i realised i cant take long games anymore. as in. my knee will get tired n it wont be able to take my weight.

im beginning to like my hair. as in d fringe. it flows to one side now n doesn curl so muc. not bad.

oh n i got burnt from ytd's soccer. wth i was feeling damn hot d whole night. i cooled my body down by taking a shower den i put back on my shirt. my shirt was freakg hot luh. from my body heat. n ive turned blacker. freak.

d sole of my shoe has holes now. like obvious ones. n cos of dat my socks got more holes n ive got a bad blister under my feet. ouch.

all in all. sch's been okay n ive started mugging. err but im going damn slow. nevertheless its better den nth. (:

2006-08-24T21:28:00.000+08:00

l1r5 51? i still cant believe it. aaaaahhhh

oh my knee's gona give way soon. it hurts everytime after i play soccer. why why why. shld eat d pills dat help improve joints huh. err any sponsors..

i wana get a new shoe. white joga bonito shoe. i think its nicee.

oh n since d guys are starting their n's in 12 days time, dey wont be plyg soccer after sch so i shall spend d time studying instead. ive actually set to study during sept hols but dats too short of a time for prelims. so i shall start this week. promise. i mean this wknd. (: shall do my best.

TO D BIG MONSTER, I KNOW YOUR GONA READ MY BLOG SOONER OR LATER, THIS IS JUST FOR U. U SUCKKKKK!! STUPID MONSTER. HAHA LOVE U ANYWAY. ISH 5 YRS N ITS GONA END SOON. PROMISE TO CATCH UP ONCE IN AWHILE YEA WIF D REST. COOL.

2006-08-23T19:59:00.000+08:00

I FLUNK MY ORAL! FREAK.

i didn know wad to talk abt d topic so hard fuck luhhh..

oh ytd was not bad. went suntec wif TIK! then went off to d zoo to get bnj. hey wasnt dat bad cos crys said d price went up for d ice cream n apparently zoo's bnj still d same. hah

OH YA I WANT TO BE A ZOOKEEPER! its so cool can. can touch d animals!!! haha oh ya. wait. but i have to clean up their shit. -.- okayy maybe dowan. hah

today after oral went to do my dnt. err n dats bout it. hah.

fuckg shobana can u pls stop acting cute. its getting veh irritating. seriously. just stop it.

n tania cher. pls go to sch. (: hah

2006-08-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY CUT MY HAIR. WAS RELUCTANT TO BUT YA. HAD TO I GUESS.

nth muc to blog abt... oh oh. I WAS ABLE TO DO MY PRAC TODAY. OH YEAH OH YEA. ok shut up.

oh relax syah. im here (: u can buy for me chocs n u'll feel happy. yay. =p

i want put more movies in my ipod! ! !

fuck u. u lied.

2006-08-20T18:41:00.000+08:00

i dont reali know her. im not close to her. but somehow. i'll miss gen.

i did part of my dnt alrd. sucks luh. so many left. n d dateline is next wed. its super fast cos i still got lotsa work left undone. gona concentrate on it tmr. stay back from 9 till late to do it. no more playing for me.... LETS HOPE I CAN DO IT. hah

THANK U SHIKIN FOR D TREAT. (: LOVES.

she's uber nice i swear..

its not dat i duno anything. i do read your blog. but its so emo it freaks me out. if u wana say smthing. just say it. don ask your friend to interrogate me can? at least i was nice to ans her qns n all cos i know. it will go to u.. cos my guess is u ask her to ask me. dats d reason why she added me in d first place. like i said. my guess.

aisyah's been lovely huh acc me when i cant go to slp. I KNOW YOUR ALRD ASLP BUT U STILL WOKE UP TO TALK TO ME ANYWAY. haha thank u. (:

yes like yuai said we shld treasure our friends before dey walk out of our life. somehow it touched my heart. hah

my class. we'll be going our seperate ways soon. i hope we'll still meet up for pratas, soccer, drinking, parties n all dat. u'll have been great. i love each n everyone of them. esp d gays hah. monster, na, b1 n b2, boj or as we call dem pos (pile of shit) n all.

YES! ITS BEEN A WEEK SINCE I LAST POP. -.- HAH. eh great achievement. n i wont be drinking till end of yr. hohohoho.

2006-08-17T19:41:00.000+08:00

life's been boring. hah but gd news for me ive been studying. well not dat much. but ya. ive been paying attention in class. but my attention span reali veh low. i want to hurry up complete my pokemon den i don have to play it alrd den can concentrate on my work. hah

ive been veh broke this week. i went to sch wif 2 bucks today. n a few coins. like wth luhhhh...

n i got caught for playing soccer in d canteen. FUCK MAJOR CHONG. asshole.
den tmr have to meet him. wthhh...

zul u asshole like wad did u say to atiq luhh.. confirm smting bad abt me. what a cousin. ish. eh n i lost dat 3 months bet. haha i prefer wad i am now.

i havent pop for almost a week. feeling a lil sick. but hope it'll be over soon. if not i'll just have to like take a stick or 2. but no way m i going back to being heavy.

2006-08-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

HOHO I HAVENT POP FOR 2 DAYS. NOT A BAD START. gona be 3 soon.

omg im so freaked out. freaky freaky freak. like omg luhhh. emo overpossessive n all. ish ARGH! im freaked out. so many f. hahaha

today wasn dat bad. i had like 5 meals today bathed 4 times today. wads wrong wif me man. neh mind at least i ate alot today. IM FINALLY DOING SOME WORK. yay.. but like its only abit. neh mind i shall slowly buck up right.

IM FINDING A STUDY PARTNER WHO IS STRICT N CAN MAKE ME SIT N DO MY WORK.
i duno how xq can just shut up n do her work. so cool i want learn quick teach me.

hohoho n EMILY is my imaginary gf. she doesnt go sch -.- n she's like super hot. haha d song tells more bout her.

'Cause there's no one in the world like Emily (:

2006-08-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

went town ytd get alexis's bday presents. thongs n ya. red undies. but its nicee.. hmm
then went to her place for bbq. err okayy la had fun. didn know xq was quite nice.. though i bet she abit high go arnd kicking balls n everywhere else. hmm stayed till late. went off with xq arnd 1 plus. marcella's nuts luhh.. but dat gay's quite gd looking.

slpt arnd 3 den had to wake up early in d morning like 5.45 to get ready n be by kallang by 7. i woke up at 5.45 but my teammates were all aslp. so decided to slp til dey wake me up. haha so ended waking up at 7. HAHA. we played at d cage. it was nice though veh tiring. isit cos of pop or d tar below dats making us tired. neways we played n got 4th or isit 5th. not sure. but ya. enjoyed myself. though it was damn damn rough. i was one of d youngest dere. i had a clash with 2 studded boot on my right leg. one on my shin d other one at d back. fuckg painful luh.. but overall it was nice.

went yishun get my specs den went home. i need to make my ez link sooooonnn.. fuckg using lotsa money now luh. fuck.

i may sound slow n dumb but actually i know exactly wads going on. i got everyone of your hints. i know u wanted me to read your blog. i did. i felt very sorry after reading it but i know its for your own good. its not easy but i guess we have to move on. im moving on. i know it sucks. ive taste it so many times. but i duno why im not doing anything to help u ease it cos i know if i were to do anything, it might turn out wrong. i think i have this in my mind all d time. WHATEVER DECISION U MAKE, MAKE SURE YOUR HAPPY WITH IT. gota be selfish at times. afterall. its your life.

geraldine. hello ! (:

syah. eh isnt it a gd thing to owe me more. harharhar no luhh wont ask u so many stuff. we'll even it out luh. i'll treat u when i can. fair okayy. see im nice. though d ice cream n chocs was becos u lost a bet to me. hahaha well. who ask u not to believe me.. like what makes u think halim can beat my timing. okay hadi shut up.

tania. like wads wrong wif sending ppl home?! im nice u see.. =p call me blackie somemore luh. iritating. u better go sch tmr sweets. dat hiyaaaar veh stupid leh.. like. hahaha FUNNY shit.

2006-08-12T01:00:00.000+08:00

i didn realise i make sucha big impact on someones life. like just a simple reply meant alot. oh shit i feel so guilty. i shld be responsible for my actions. I THINK IM GROWING UPKK. hah but being crappy doesn mean your still a kid right.

I WANA SAY A BIG THANK U TO AISYAH FOR D ICE CREAM JUST NOW. DIDN KNOW U WERE SO NICE. LOVE U. HAHA MUST TREAT ME MORE OKAYYYY. ok wait. but that was a lost she had to owe me. not a treat. haha neh mind still thanks aniway...

fuckg ashraf needs to shut his gap luhh.. can see alot off black faces from d bball girls.. he's a total asshole.

oh fuck. my weekends so tight how m i suppose to finish my dnt. ive got futsal tournament on sunday n i duno how to plan sunday out. what abt tuition man.. shit shit shit.. settle it some other day then.

i feel so guilty inside. but yet somehow. i know im doing the right thing. it may hurt but its better now den later. once again. im sorry.

2006-08-10T17:54:00.000+08:00

been a rollercoaster ride.. (: ): -_- :3)

hahaha tue's been great. congrats aljunied. well done. wow. my first team to coach n we got champion. wad a bright start to my career huh. i might want to be one.. harharhar. n cos of d meet i had to pon sch. couldn play capteh n takraw. harhar but ya neh mind luhh... i wont win if i play also..

after d meet went to meet crys. walked arnd town area.. went bnj. saw MARCELLA. haha oh man everyone was so RED.
crys wont return my pop. like aaaah. havent open can. den i guessed dat spoiled her day. im so sorry. maybe i'll follow my couz n quit during fasting month. harhar but doubt we'll quit. but no harm trying. met my couz after dat. zul. walked arnd raffle's place dere bought drinks. what a bargain buy one get one free. haha not bad. if only jack was lidat. bleah.. it was only like 5 lidat luhh.. we walked arnd pop n all dat till 8 when we met yuai n tania. den ya. wanted to watch fireworks but it was so so crowded we didn manage to reali enjoy it. so rushed home but we didn make it in time to catch d train before d crowd does. so yuh. wasted. we slackd at cavanagh bridge for d crowd to go home. but it took sucha long time me n ai took cab home. tania n zul took d train. dats my new years eve. err okayy luh not dat bad.

national day was boring. okay not so. cos i had bbq at home. n my couz shah was here. haha pranked using my bro's account. it was so funny. okay neh mind. nth much luhh..

i accidentally deleted my pokemon luhhh.. fuck. so ya. now got nth to do so blog. hahaha

err can i like set my priorities straight first. omg i feel so lazy to do my work. while i got tons of dem.

wads wrong wif me inside. i dont know wad i want. its all mixed up inside. just let it be luhhh. tried to solve it but ya.. i cant. theres like no one now that i want. get it? im not sure i want it now. eh. actually who cares if im d flirtatious one. it doesn matter luhh.. wad for get into a serious r/s now. u wont be able to get married right at this age. urgh. ive finally learned to not just go arnd saying yes or smwhere along dat line..

i shldnt care shld i. fuck it just continue wif life as it is. hah oh wow. i blogged.

2006-08-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

I SWEAR IF U WERE TO SKIP SCH FOR ANOTHER WEEK IM GONA GET UP EARLY N PULL U OFF YOUR BED EVERY MORNING TO SCHOOL.. TRY ME!

2006-08-05T20:27:00.000+08:00

omg im freaking tired....... urghh
head so heavy..
went suntec with atiq just now.. wif her friends. was d first time i went to d convention part. well dere wasnt anything also luhh.. i soo wana take d duck tours.. ting we go okayy.. hahaha
went to watch lake house. its a stupid show luh but damn nice i like.. hah well i almost fell aslp while watching cos some parts quite boring.. n i was tired..
i could barely walk.. cos of ytd. ytd totally killed me.. i ran alot just to show dem how to do it. n i had to do a 400m.. dat totally killed me.. was exhausted throughout d night.

i fuckg wana drop malay. alrd got b4 wadd. enuf luhh...

i hate having an aching body. its soooo.. painful..

my week was okay i guess. some things i cant figure out why. it was a fast week..

oh ya.. i fuckg lost my wallet. again!! this time wif ic inside. im damn pissed luh.. fuck d person who took it mann.. n cos of dat im broke! freakg broke. i owe fat 20 bucks..
but at least i got my ipod back..

freakg tania didn come sch for 1 whole wk. wth.. only i think she came once. oh ya. once. on d day i lost my wallet. -_-. she's damn suay i swear.

too fastttt..... godd....

2006-07-29T00:22:00.000+08:00

FUCKING MOODSWINGS CAN U GET LOST. I DONT WANT U. FUCK OFF..

urgh i didn have d heart to scold u. I CONTROLLED. hah random.

fuck dat donut la.. wads wrong wif d lower sec nowadays. can dey fuckg show some respect. i swear d next person who doesnt show me one will get it from me.

school of dolphins (:

2006-07-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

I SWEAR DOLPHIN IS UBER CUTE.

haha today was better =) .

i shld cut down on my fucks la. seriously. hurr..
nomorenomorenomore.

my freaking hair is damn gross. i dont know wad to do wif it laaa.. cut? keep? its so freaking dry.. n i dowana layer it its like super layered. n my fringe sucks cos of it. maybe i'll keep long. but its damn ugly now..

i miss performing. i wan perform for tchers day.

there are no raindrops of roses n girls in white dresses.

i want a black rose.

2006-07-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

Do you see me
Do you feel me like I feel you
Call your number
I can not get through
You don't hear me and I dont understand
When I reach out I dont find your hand

Some day I just keep pretending
That you'll stay dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had

I keep telling myself things can turn around with time
And if I wait it out you could always change your mind
Like a fairy tale where it works out in the end
Can I close my eyes have you lying here again
Then I come back down
Then I fade back in
Then I realize its just what might have been.

Am I a shadow on your wall
Am I anything at all
Anything to you
Am I a secret that you keep
Do you dream me while your sleeping after all
Some day I just keep pretending
That you'll stay dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
That I never had
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
You dont see me, you dont feel me like I feel you

this entry's so................ real.

2006-07-25T19:35:00.000+08:00

i'll be ok. i promise.

i didnt die

2006-07-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

i want u to know dat i miss u. i miss u soo.......

i look up to d heavens for help.
to keep me going to make me strong.
i havent seen u in ages now. u make me blog today.

is life always like that? i wonder...

cheer up my bitch. it'll be over soon.
u too tania. im with u always.

these green lines i see.... its u.

2006-07-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

"Letters To You"
Can't you see that i wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and i'm all alone
Get me through this one
Do you notice i'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But i'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice i'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
No more looking i've found home
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I'm gone away
I'm gone away

2006-01-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

oh... tiring day.. haha
went play soccer after sch.. den like.. we went clark quay for parkour vid.. i was soo soo tired so i decided to be e cameraman.. its so freaking cool la. e soccer game reali took alot of energy from me. im so worn out la. den like ive been eating only 1 or 2 meals per day... shit.. im so gona loose weight..

asy pangseh me... urgh. haha well last 2 days haf been goin well i guess. at least i got someone to go out wif..

qi... u look super ugly wif braces la! gawd.. hurry get it removed.. haha =) well u'll be pretty again after u take it out. which will take like.. a year? haha sad.. but ya..

oh im so so glad phyl n jean miss me n not hate me.. gawd.. dey were like shooing me off e other time dey saw me popping in town. urgh.. yay..

your eye candy was gorgeous today la. too bad for u.. sori couldnt take pic.. tried to la. but cant find her. haha

2006-01-25T17:10:00.000+08:00

deres been some ups n downs tis few days i guess.. i havent been attending training la.. wth.. why mus dey fall on such days..

i cut my hair.. don reali like it except e tail. its so cool. haha

wei i need u ok. don leave me.

the whole world hates me. wth

2006-01-22T11:42:00.000+08:00

wow its been a veh long time. haha well.. sch's been great i guess. at least im not so lonely or wad.. haha been paying attention in class. which is great but draining. haha quite fun la if u knw wad tcher is doin n all dat.. me n hua will be like always e one who wants to ans e qns tcher gives us or write e ans on e board.. such stuff.. damn fun la..

thanks tania for lending me your fone. will return to u soon aight. =) thanks la..

oh got my havanas brazil flops.. its damn nice la.. but like. dats e only nice one.. n my couz got it alrd.. gawd. im biting.. but heck its nice.. bet he doesnt mind.

n i got my burberry perfume.. at least it aint eau de toilette...
dumb shaun act as though he got alot of perfumes but he doesnt even knw wad dat means..

na broke my black stand up speak up band. dats like my last one... urghh.. wth...

well.. wateva..

can i not go training? don feel like running anymore.. wan go poly join soccer instead. haha

2005-12-27T14:47:00.000+08:00

oh i jus gota brag bout my team n my couz zul..

17 n 11. unstoppable duo. wow our teamwork is like. WOAH. haha

its like everytime i cross. i don even hav to look for him. he'll be at e ball scoring goals.

had a tough match ytd. won 8-7.

first half we scored 3 goals. all of it was zul's goal from my assist. he scored 7 goals la. amazing striker.

we've played 5 matches ever since we got our jersey. n we nv lost i single match b4. we don intend to lose also. haha

zul is like a bro of my own. haha so cool la. we drink together. pop together. all e stuff together. haha

oh n tania. he's a bigger flirt den me. haha =p

2005-12-19T09:36:00.000+08:00

woah. its been almost a month since i updated. haha been working la. den like everyday leave home early den reach home late. need reach office opp far east dere arnd 8.30 den actually finish round 7.30 but i always reach home arnd 12 or 11. duno why.

but e latest was like 2 days ago. reach home at 3. haha fun la.

fucking tiring. don reali like e job. but i continue cause of e ppl dere. e manager. big boss. friens. dey simply rock la. wont forget dem. thanks guys. =)
i'll drop by time by time disturb u guys. wahaha

REIGN. thanks for having me in e team. ive done wad i can for u. haas

will be coming back to COSC next yr. cool offer la. taken. haas

N's result today. freak. somehow now i scared. haha bleah.

ive been popping alot sia. how seh to start training? i'm fucking dead. urgghhh

why when i quitting job only i get no.s haha shld hav learned dat skill earlier. den i could hav lotsa numbers. wahaha =p

tania. its not infected la. jus swollen. normal. n wei. im not black. n i updated. haha

2005-11-26T00:58:00.000+08:00

well. lifes been ok till ytd.

freaking shit why muz it come back?

pls go away. urgh.
well e best ting is to fight poison wif poison. why not asking - to come back. it will definitely be better. though of course it'll be tough. k im crapping

omg wads wrong wif my leg. ive been limping for like wad. since tue? 4 days n counting. reali bad. i can barely walk. but still gota go training? oh dang. i skipped training today. well. had to. i can barely walk. urgh. e day b4 had training in e morning n soccer training in e aft. blaaahhhhh. so freaking pissed can. lets jus hope it aint an injury. but it couldnt be ache alrd. ache wont last so long.

i jus spoiled my impression to u didnt i. u were saying how great i was n i had to do this. fuck. i jus need to keep my mouth shut. most of the time. oh why not hav a quiet hadi. dat'll be great.

2005-11-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

how bad can it get?

i didnt ask for it to get tis bad.

m i asking too much.

happiness is all i asked for.

n i knw i aint in ur list no more. maybe hav nv been in it. only u knw.

wads new. losing tings bit by bit every single day. soon im left wif e clothes im wearing n nth else.im trying to make myself useful nowadays. but how. wad do i reali wan? wad do i reali need? do i need all this junk i asked for?
do i need to live an expensive life? when at tis age i cant afford any?

i need to make myself useful. which path shld i choose?

if ur definitions of friens is so den so be it. dang/

DROP!/

2005-11-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

somethings so empty inside.......

get on wif life.

dang/

2005-11-18T19:07:00.000+08:00

fucking day except for training.
some ppl jus don give a damn bout me.
FINE. u shall not see me anymore.
freaking pissed.
after all i did. how much i tried.
this is wad i get in return.

aches aches aches. 3 days n counting.

2005-11-15T22:23:00.000+08:00

wad shld i do?
????
????

???

?????
???

2005-11-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

HEAVEN KNOWS

Ooh
Heaven only knows
Heaven only knows
How much
I love you baby
How i much
I need you baby
Don't want you to leave me no no
Whoo ooh
Heaven's in your arms

Baby please
Please dont take your love from me
I am yours forever more
Til eternity
Silently
Listen to the words I say
Now I'm not talkin just for play
Listen to me please

Heaven knows
Its not the way it should be
Heaven knows
Its not the way it could be
Don't you know
There's no need to leave no no
Heaven knows
I never wanna leave you
Heaven knowsI only wanna please you
Don't you know
There's no need to leave oh no
Oh no no no no
Don't go

Down inside
Don't get caught with foolish pride
Put all the other things aside
Theres' only you and me yeah
Believe in us
We were always meant to be
Me for you and you for me
Til eternity oh

Heaven knows
Its not the way
Heaven knows
Noo oh babe
Don't you know
Love is what I need ooh I
Heaven knowsIHeaven knowsOoh babyDon't you knowDont you know dont you know love is what i needYeah

Cuz I love ya
And I need ya
Yes I want ya
Gotta have ya
Ooh baby
Where were you
When I need you ooh
Ooh

Heaven only knows
Heaven only knows
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Said heaven only knows
That I love you babe
Ooh
I said I feel real good
When im with u
Baby you know just what to do You love me right
You love me good
Always love me like you should now
Yeah
Oh
Yeah
Uuh
Yeah
Heaven only knows

Heaven knows
Lord knows
I need ya
Heaven knows
I'll do anything to be with ya
Don't you know
Cuz I love ya, love ya, I love I love I love
Heaven knows
Oooh I love you
Heaven knows
Oooh Don't you know
Baby love is what I need oooh
Heaven knows
Oooh yeah

------------------------------

from the time i wake up
'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on

so tell me where do i start

'cause it's breaking my heart

don't wanna let her go

maybe my love will come back some day

only heaven know

sand maybe our hearts will find their way

only heaven knows

and all i can do is hope and pray

'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me

that if you really love her

you've gotta set her free

and if she returns in kind

i'll know she's mine

so tell me where do i start

'cause it's breaking my heart

don't wanna let her go

maybe my love will come back some day

only heaven knows

and maybe our hearts will find their way

only heaven knows

and all i can do is hope and pray

'cause heaven knows

my friends keep telling me

that if you really love her

you've gotta set her free

and if she returns in kind

i'll know she's mine

why i live in despair

'cause wide awake or dreaming

i know she's never there

and all these time i act so brave

i'm shaking inside

why does it hurt me so...

maybe my love will come back some day

only heaven knowsand maybe our hearts will find their way

only heaven knowsand all i can do is hope and pray

'cause heaven knows

maybe my love will come back some day

only heaven knows

and maybe our hearts will find their way

only heaven knows

and all i can do is hope and pray

'cause heaven knows

heaven knows

2005-11-12T14:33:00.000+08:00

i thought i threw u far far away. why are u back? why am i still feeling tis way.
im trying not to show u. but its jus hard to do. n bcause of u i got into trouble.

why has it faded. wad wrong did i do. i roughly knw wad i did. i jus couldnt control it. hmm but nw im doing my best to make it up to u. get it bac. it may take some time but im in full gear. but its hard to get it going nw. i can rarely see u. nw im grounded too. u rarely call. i take risks to call u. u wouldnt allow me to get u e card. with it i would hav no probs contacting u. maybe got. but lesser. but u wouldnt allow me to get it for u. ive lost everything except u. i dowana lose u. not agn. it hurts to hear guys going after u n all dat. but somehow it helped. im trusting u more now. during dat period we've been exchanging thoughts pretty harshly n dats wad made it fade. it was my wrong doing. dat was my fault. i hurt u. im sorry. anyway we got over it. somehow i hoped tis will make us stronger. im beginning to keep tings to myself. rather den telling u n hurting u. a smile on my face. u'll c dat more often. i guess its better tis way. dowana make u worry. dowana make u sad. all cause of 1 reason. well.... i love u.
life's been empty without u.
but deres always u to look forward to.

2005-11-12T14:03:00.000+08:00

Why Don't You Kiss Her

We're the best of friends

And we share our secrets

She knows everything that is on my mind

Lately somethings changed

As I lie awake in my bed

A voice here inside my head

Softly says

Why don't you kiss her

Why don't you tell her

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way u feel inside

Oh im so afraid to make that first move

Just a touch and we

Could cross the line

And everytime she's near

I wanna never let her go

Confess to her what my heart knows

Hold her close

Why don't you kiss her

Why don't you tell her

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way u feel inside

What would you say

I wonder would she just turn away

Or would she promise me

That she's here to stay

It hurts me to wait

I keep asking myself

Why don't you kiss her

Why don't you tell her

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way u feel inside

Why don't you kiss her (tell her you love her)

Why don't u tell her (tell her you need her)

Why don't you let her see

The feelings that you hide

Cuz she'll never know

If you never show

The way you feel inside...

Why don't you kiss her?

2005-11-12T13:53:00.000+08:00

BABY CALL MY HOUSE PHONE PLS. IM SO FREAKING BORED.

aaaahhh.......

2005-11-11T08:30:00.000+08:00

oh. i updated. haha well. using bro's com fer awhile.

wad to do. err ive been so freaking bored tis few days. deres nowhere to go. all my friens got o's. aaahhh.
i cant wait for training. at least got smting to do. haha n i cant wait for soccer. well. dats more fun. i havent kick a ball for like. weeks maybe 1 month.

aiya yuai ah. u bored shld call me knw. haha =p yaya i knw. u cant. haha oh. try sending me a msg when ur bored den i use my fone come online talk to u ok. well. i'll try to get it fixed fast.
maybe i staying over couz house. den can use com la. haha

hey i miss u too. haha tc of urself aight. love ya.

2005-11-02T16:46:00.000+08:00

oh yay. finally my com is fixed. oh. so cool. nw even got sound alrd. so no need use my freaking bro's com anymore. ass hole.

syafiq. ur so dumb. omg. i duno wad to say. -.-

lotsa stuff happened. oh well. duno wad happened. forgot. err having a freaking headache nw. cant tink. bleah

shall update another time.

tania. send me e pics!!!

zahidah. oh yea u too. maaf zahir batin. =)

yuai. oh oh oh. :) muacks. love. oh n ya. u tag at my blog saying u were bored while on e fone wif me? oh my. talk to me boring meh? haha

2005-10-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

ur missed. wad can i say.

oh man. e tagboard disappeared suddenly. hmm changed to e old one. but e tag aso old one. oh. don hav my baby's tag. argghhhh.

oh man im in love wif tania's blog's song. haha damn nice.

thanks to e presents. =) its nice.

nth to blog abt. freak. my days getting boring. so boring.

gona learn more than words tonite.

2005-10-23T12:46:00.000+08:00

oh man. i so miss u. :) jus got off e fone wif u n here i am blogging. man. miss u soooo much. i hav to hold back when i talk. so much wana say yet scared u wont like it. well miss u singing for me. smtimes u sing chi love song for me which i don even undstnd. den i talk to u u will scold me. cause u singing love song to me den i interrupt. its so sweet of u can. =)
i miss u dancing to e music. haha well my cheerleader here can reali dance.
she can sing too. oh wow. n im not tone deaf ok. u reali can sing. =) u sing so so well. can even reach high notes wif flu n sore throat. haha

i love u. =) muacks

2005-10-22T12:07:00.000+08:00

oh man deres jus so many tings in my mind. heres e right place to let it out. hmm

flip like a ball n drop.
nightwing of a cliff n drop.
i shld jus throw. throw layout. throw my twists. throw new flips. it'll be alright even if i fall. i'll recover if i break a bone. wads so scary bout it. wads so scary bout throwing a new flip u've nv tried before. wads so scary bout heights. if u fall. jus stand up n walk off. its ok wad. wads making me so scared to do all this. tink nw i hav e confidence to throw. cause i couldnt care less if i fall. i'll jus stand n walk off. yes.

i seriously need to keep myself occupied 24/7. for like wad. another 2-3 yrs. heck i can do dat. or can i? freak how to keep myself occupied. oh man.

oh man. i wana go back. i realised ive made so many mistakes. too many to count. ive disappointed alot of ppl. i so hate my life right nw. im jus writing stuff. wana clear my brain. im writing crap. pls don mind.

wads wif u. i waited e whole morning for u to call. u wouldnt even reply my msg.
wouldnt even call me. u called her. why nt me. fuck la. aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh.

u knw how badly i wan to c u right nw. but fuck. i hav to keep my distant. well jus looking at u from far. its enough.

how i wish im reali spiderman. can swing by ur house anytime. don even hav to care bout transport. i can watch u from rooftops. well. keep u safe. oh man. i would do anything for dat nw. dang/

17171717171717171717171717171717171717171717171717171717171717171717... get it off my head.

yuai pls strike off suicidal thoughts or cutting or wateva. jus live life to e fullest.
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i seriously need sm1 to talk to. urgghh

2005-10-22T08:55:00.000+08:00

oh man. its only 1 night n i cant get through it. im starting to lead a miserable life. i thought life was gona be great after 23/9. well. i was wrong. but it did gave me happiness. lots of it. i was a happy person. but nw. well i don tink i can be dat happy person anymore. omg i reali miss her so much.
oh man. i jus couldnt slp n stop crying last nite. well. i reali couldnt hold back my tears. it jus shows how much i love her n how much im attached to her.

i thought i was gona spend my holidays wif u. i reali wanted to go to ur fav bridge wif u.

i nv thought it would be e last time i'll taste those lucious lips.

oh man tmrs e 23. tink im gona lock myself inside e room. my relatives all coming. oh no.

well. no matter wad i still hav to respect ur decision. well ur kinda forced to by ur mom. so i guess deres reali nth i can do. i'll jus hope i can get back to u when ur old enuf. n i hope u'll come back to me when ur old enuf.

oh man i reali cant believe i didnt spare a thought for tania. yuai ah. she's hurt too. we've been so down n all dat n she's hurt too from seeing us like tis. she jus cant do anything. only stand n watch.

it jus came to me as a suprise. im jus shocked la. imagine it. happened while bowling. fuck.

well tania. nw i undstnd how u feeling wanting to fly. i wana star gaze too ok. call me next time if ur gona star gaze.

well. theres nth to look forward to anymore. i wana go hardcore breaking after e fasting mnth. from morning till night. everyday. nt bad. fuck anything else. or maybe i shld run. i could run away from everything. run n nv return? OoO sounds ok to me.

to break or to run? errr.....................................................................................

well. dats wad ive been thinking e whole night. fucking night ever.

sori im jus letting it out. dont read it pls.

my baby.

2005-10-21T20:03:00.000+08:00

oh. i cant believe tis. i wont be able to spend time wif u anymore. oh my.
it hurts me as much as it hurts u ok. cheer up my baby. we'll be ok. u n me. we'll get back together agn. my promise to u.

its not your fault not mine. guess we got caught unguarded. its alright. we shld look on e brightside (if deres any). well. u need to cheer up. i knw its hard. its hard for me too. guess i jus hav to keep on fantasizing till we get back together agn. we'll go to your fav bridge ok? on day. sooner or later. =)

i will miss u. i will hold on to u. hold on to wad i trust.

great things are worth waiting for. =)

hope u'll think n do e same as me. =)

once agn. i love u. my baby. my dear. will always be. always.

2005-10-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

today i stayed home whole day. omg. so boring can. nv wan to do tis agn. deres nth to do at home la. hmm but its ok la. get to rest my body. recharged. lalala cant wait to c u agn.

oh ya. i reali don undstnd poems. haha not gd at it. lala

oh. happy birthday crys. unfair your bday earlier den me by 5 days. dats almost a week. omg. unfair unfair unfair. hahahahahaha nvm. u didnt enjoy your bday i bet. 3 tests on dat day. oh no.

baby i was so scared. don scare me lidat agn k. dowana loose u. i love u. i love u.

qI!!!!!!!!!!! u online? wow. amazing. haha well thanks for dropping by. u so long nv tag can. wad sugary? walau. ya la its so not me. but heck. im in love. haha ey don forget my bday undstnd. n n n my present too. eee i knw i havent give u yours. i will give ok. gime mine first. oh no. i so mean to my hunk. lalala ey u owe me skateboard hor. christmas yea? end of e year. u promised!!! haha unfair la. so many ppl older den me. eee. hunk. lucks for your o's ok. babe here behind ya all de way. haha =)

2005-10-18T08:40:00.000+08:00

haha ytd was cool. went tania house. err pass her her wallet. den. err i promised iggy to play wif him e ps. haha so funny la. after dat her mom bought food. oOo. den ciwei came. haha woah so nice of her la give tania suprise visit. orh came from so far jus to c her den go off. woah. touching le. =p play hockey wif his bro fer awhile. haha after dat met yuai. den we went back tania's house play err hockey agn. haha k. both of dem damn pro la. okokok. err. den took pics. spend time wif my baby. dats when iggy started pestering me. omg. he bit me! haha den keep whacking me. oh no he reali got nth better to do. den spend time wif baby in tania's room he keep coming in. haha he actually cried when i dowan play ps wif him. IGGY your alrd p4. haha don cry. oOo. den nw tania can play jay chou song le. wahaha nt bad.. muz prac ok? can do it one. so sori forgot bring your dads slipper. oops. pass it to u soon ok. well. after dat yuai go back her sch care. den i went back.

hurry up save money ok tania. haha =p

love u baby. =)

2005-10-16T21:30:00.000+08:00

had a gd day ytd. some bad parts though. haha

morning. met dip at 11. went esplanade break. haha did my flips n all dat. met shikin. syafiq. haha den met yvn yang arnd 3 plus. so tiring la break. den went home wif yvn yang dip. reach home arnd 5. go bathe all dat went back out at 5.30. met my couz amk mrt at 6. went back esplanade met wif greg dey all. syafiq still dere. woah. haha den arnd 8 met my classmates. went boat quay. drink. omg. i was e first one to vomit can. cause whole day nv eat. i learned my lesson. nv drink on an empty stomach. walau. we opened 3 chivas. i wasnt dere on e 3rd one. couldnt take it no more. haas drank abit too much la. i cheers wif alot of ppl drink pure. my couz. hua. aboo. shaun. ben. alot la. walau. i vomited abt 5 times. hahahahaha so cool. my last vomit was like when i was in pri 1. i act cant vomit one.

i couldnt take it no more. so i called tania wether she can come out. den she say can stay over at her place. so i paid dem abt 30. hua lend me 10. i got 5 left. exactly 15. haha took cab to her place. den we went multi storey carpark where she star gazes. bleah. i vomit one last time dere. couldnt take it. e meter fare on e cab made me vomit. walau it moved so fast can. dumb. err. den went back her place. had a nice hot shower. watch tv awhile den fell aslp. haha woah i slpt well la. buden e aircon was on e whole night. brrrr.. damn coold can. i normally put timer one. but tis one whole night. omg.

woke up arnd 10 plus. went bathe. den sat in e living room wif her n her mom. she got nice mom can.. den she cook for us. brunch i guess. haha spend e afternoon dere. played guitar. com. tv. HOCKEY. so fun can. haha tania's good la. walau. bet my baby is too. haas well. thanks for e hospitality. haha den my shoes kena cope. aiya forget it. it was raining damn heavily can. walau. errr. den me n tania went yuai's place. we stand outside all wet la. den her maid call us come in. haha well. watched her 256 channels. haha spend time wif her. yay. so happy can. ya. den i left home first. ya. n dats abt it.

tania. so so sori. didnt realise your wallet wif me. argghh. thanks agn. =)

yuai. baby. i love u. haas ey u still havent call me le. its 9.44. ur supposed to call me at 9. bet u'll be apologising later la. walau u everytime lidat. =p lalala nvm. still love u loads. i wan c u agn.

woah i got stomach upset. muz be because of ytd la. walau. unfair. haas. don tink i wan drink anymore. or i shld knw my limits. lalala

2005-10-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

oOoOo. had fun today didnt we. 3 of us shld get together more yea. but no more at yuai's backyard pls. hate mosquitos. haha dey so pro la. kill kill kill. i one aso nv. jus sit dere scratching. haha

no no tania. not for u aight. not yet. haha well. my first was in sec 4. u can wait. lalala. oops.
duno why. my baby so act cute today can. woah. den soo hyper suddenly. we so tired walk arnd so long alrd den she keeps running. den we walk slow she scold. haha baby ah. don so hyper next time can? esp wif us. handicapped ppl. eh tania. nw im handicap cause of u. haha not fair.

ya ya. thanks for taking those nice pics. got pics of u aso la. haha cannot leave u out. yay. =)
i seriously wan u eat more. haha =p eat eat eat ok. muz appreciate food. my baby dowan grow fat so ask u la. muz do it for me ok. lalalla im being mean.

well. im broke. oh no. sat sure die.

lastly...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULS. JULIANAH ONG OLDER DEN ME BY 11 DAYS. DATS UNFAIR

hold u tight.

2005-10-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

baby. i update make sure u update aso ok.

sat. went gym wif pradip. not those weights one. err. for gymnasts. haha yay got gainer n boomerang. did nightwing. fell horribly. bleah. well. worth e try i guess.
pass dear smting. hope she likes it. haha well. we waited in e rain for u. haas

sun. met her. spend e time under e block. well. we talk. i jus love spending time wif her la. well glad u n her ok alrd. dere wasnt any problem to start wif. haas silly. both of u. ish ish ish. well guess its partially my fault? sori. very sori.
baby. sori knw u wana spend time alone. well. being wif me aso count as spending time alone yea? i always wana be dere for u. n i will.

today. err went for e interview ting. ok it was abit dumb la. i wasnt paying attention cause e person was really dumb. actually my dad don allow la. duno why la he. but i c. tania like so excited lidat. well. cant let her down. haha i don tink i gona pay to make e portfolio ting. aiya. but hey. if u wan. go ahead aight? i'll pei u la. go through it wif u lo since i got it wif u. haha knw u wan it. go for it. yay.

we went eat fish n co. i tink e fish n chips not bad. big la. but e chips like not fresh lidat. den e another dish so disgusting. well. i hate it. e other time go pastamania aso e same. jus hate dat dish. haha well after dat pei her go meet her special one. hahaha at kallang. cause i waiting for my baby too. she having fun at east coast. den dowan disturb. hmm well. ya ya. finally u saw my flip rite? well deres plenty more la. haas u knw wad. i cant believe i can fit in your shoe.

well after dat i went town meet yuai n her friens. oh no. my baby kena sunburn. haas so so red.
well. i find her friens quite cool. haha went cine play arcade. den went walk2. ok la. actually dats abt it. but spend quite some time in e arcade.

baby. i had a gd time. too c u so cheerful n lively. it made my day. i love u

2005-10-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

to my one n only.

im worried bout u. r u ok?

well. i reali need to clear tings up wif u. =) after dat we'll be better. promise.
i wana be close to u. unbreakable. your n one n only. your not a replacement. lets get dat straight.
im seriously in love wif u. no doubt bout dat. well baby. cheer up.

i duno why. jus hav to update. got no mood nw. she's crying. cause of me. omg. NOOO! i hate dat.

i will treat u better. i promise

2005-10-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

lets get it done and over wif can? yay tmr my last paper. not reali. but who cares abt dnt. bleah impt paper tmr. woah.
i cant wait to c u agn. miss u like crzy. wahaha

duno why feel kinda down tis few days. haha jus a little. ? ? ? why ar.

dang my com e virus getting bad.

dear exams over. enjoy yourself. =) don stress yourself anymore aight?